In this time of S'fras HaOmer we have to start with emunah and reach
the point of bitual. each one of us has to count s'firah HaOmer, we cant
like other mitzvot be included or kavened like being included in
Hamotzi or asking someone to be a sheliach for us. We ourselves, and no
one else have to count and be included, as an individual we our selves
must elevate our self level by level each day that we count to rectify
the defects that we have caused with our lack of faith. Lack of emunah,
it's self is the shoresh of all sins. Mikvah is essential to this
process to take a mikvah everyday during s'firah HaOmer. As we pass
through these gates and obtain new levels of B'tiual. Reaching hopefully
to total nullification and reception of the Toarh of truth on vav
Sivan. "We will do!!! "and then "we will hear"???. Remez!! (hint hint)
Total commitment to emunah and thus achieving total b'tiual.Now know that it is impossible to come to B'tiual and closeness to Hashem with out emunah but know that with out b'tiual it is impossible to come to emunah. In this lies the question where to start. Well its hard to subdue the ego and the yeitzer harah to become bitiual, so we must first have emunah, as our emunah increases, then we have to become more b'tiual, the more b'tiual we become the more emunah is increased, the more emunah we have the more we have to be b'tiual. we repeat this pattern til we reach Ein Sof, and finish our tikun. "hopefully in this life in this goof". amen, We just have to 'tishtof l'daat shelcha me akol demionot' you have to just wash your knowledge of all it fantasies, all of its preconceived ideas.
Wake up to the fact that you are just a guest in this world, and your just passing through! you see a guest doesn't worry about food or for that matter anything he just receives from his host and is thankful for what he receives. As if you a guest of the Kadosh One Blessed be His Name for ever, what are you in need of?
I'll tell you..... A THANKFUL HEART!!!!! Just be thankful and receive from his hand all that you need, you see receiving is b'tiual and emunah is asking and trusting that you'll receive. You can't have one without the other! You have to have emunah to receive the next level, and be b'tiual to the last level, its the way of ascending. Trusting in the Tzaddik in being B'tiual to the Tzaddik then you can increase you emunah in Hashem. Also I have never completed the counting, with a bracha. As there has always been a mistake, and then depression and giving up on countingt all together. But year this Hashem willing i'll make it. As i was very b'simcha on purim, as Rebbenu says ". But I understood something very high yesterday It's very important to continue to count even without a bracha. It's true, t'shuvah to contine, if we stop after a mistake then we've lost. We have to overcome this and continue. "this is the importance of B'tiual"...!
From Rebbe Nachman's Likutey Eztot (Advice), Pesach:
The days of the month of Nissian are days of repentence like those of Tishrei. Nissian embodies the concept of Tikun HaBrit, gaurding the Holy covenant. When you are joyous you can draw the spirit of Nissian, it's joy and holiness, into the whole year. Thus you can make amends for the abuse of Covenant, and you will avoid impure exeriences by night (Likutey Mohsaran II, 5:10). The Haggadah which we recite on Pesach is a tikkun for the Covenant. The reason why it
it is recitied aloud is because the voice arouses Da'at, the knowledge of Hashem. So by reciting the Haggadah aloud we can experience a revelation of ture Da'at. Da'at itself the essence of redemption, beause the exile in Egypt came about through the abuse of the holy Covenant, which brought about a distortion of Da'at. The wine of the four cups which we drink on the frist nights of of pesach is also a tikun for da'at and for the Holy covenant. (likutey Moharan I, 20:10). and during Pesach when you pray (hitbedot) you should cry out loud.
Through the joy we have on Purim, 'clapping of hands and dancing, we are able to fulfill the mitzvah of counting the omer properly. then we are able to receive the torah on shavout, both the revealed and hidden Torah. Each day of the Omer period is associated with a different aspect of the sefirot. Remez (hint) and on that day everything which everyone in the world is talking about is purely an expression of the particular aspect with which that day is associated. "a person with understanding can hear and recognize this if he pays attention to what peopple are saying.
The 49 days of of the Omer period correspond to the 49 gates of repentance, and these in turn correspond to the 49 letters in the hebrew names of of the 12 tribes. It is though these letters and gates that we must make our return to G-D Almighty. Festival of Shavuot is the 50th gate.
This is the gateway of Hashem's "repentance" When Hashem Himself returns, as it were. That is to say, He returns to us in love. It is possible to reach all these gates and open them by reciting the psalms. You should be careful to concentrate when you recite the Psalms. Then you will be able to reach all 49 gates. During the 49 days of counting the Omer we have to cleanse ourselves of impurity and return to Hashem. Then Hashem will return to us on Shavuot (Likutey Moharan II, 73). Thus we should immerse ourselves every day of the Omer in repentance. When we immerse in the Mikvah on Shavuot (predawn after learning all night) we are connected with the highest levels of Hashem's loving-kindness and abundant mercy, and we can attain awesome levels of perception of Hashem. The illumination which radiates on shavuot is supremely extreme. And this wisdom is it self an expression of Hashem's loving-kindness and mercy. For love is bound up with wisdom and perception, as is explained elsewhere. It is a wonderful thing to experience the Kadoshness of Shavuot, and in particular the Mikvah of Shavuot- THE MIKVAH OF THE 50TH GATE- which becomes the wellspring of Holiness and purity for Israel (likutey Moharan I, 56:7).
Now is a very good time to start to get up and recite Tikun Chatztot, one thing the time just changed, and we have only to say Tikun Leah we don't say Tikun Rachael. so its much shorter. let's make fresh commitment to rise and say this important tefillas.
Rules of the tikun abbreviated:
"tikun rachael is only said on days when tachanun is recited. Tikun Leah is recited even on days when tachanun is not recited- Shabbos, Yom Tov, including Chol HaMoed , Rosh codesh, the entire month of Nissian, pesach Sheni, Lag B'Omer, Rom rosh chodesh Sivan until 7 days after Shavuot, 15 Av, from erev Yom Kippur until the eand of the month of Tishri, chanukah, T'bu Shevat, Purim and Shushan Purim. tisha b'Av only tikun Rachael is said. neither should be said after dawn ( Ben Is Chai, 9)
Come on join me, together we can do it, if we just try we can live a life that is connected and fulfilling, know for sure that, you have nothing to lose but alittle sleep, but if not, maybe a blessing?
Blessings
Reb Nati
